relapse

cant get passed my past
forgot what things we mask

when i cant even cry here
it doesnt feel safe
cant get past this fear
that i cant keep myself safe

this music reminds me of everything i hate
the fact that i agree with everything they say
and i know im not okay
theres no doubt about that

but the question is to stay?
the fact that the answer isnt obvious
leaves my heart delayed

and they thought i was lying
could i prove otherwise by dying?

would that make a difference
or is everything still okay?