your unsuccessful attempt to rope me back in was just that, a tragic failure to make me feel something you had- loss.
somehow, i dont feel much these days. ive returned back to my old days of compromise with my sullen loneliness. i hardly ever cry. i sleep alone. im okay. so while you reach realizations and come to conclusions that we both messed up and you would rather have some of me than none at all, just don't try to drag me in. it wont work. ive made up my mind.
have you already forgotten? i tried to reconcile the pain. i apologized over and over again, but you were too blind to realize that was all i could do. there was nothing else i could give you. i was never any less than honest with you. i gave you what i could and all you gave in return at the end was bitterness over something i could not control- my heart.
i cried for days. wondering if my decision was the right one. i recognized it was snap and i used a stupid disagreement as the catalyst to heartbreaking emptiness, but i never changed my mind. telling you i loved you was the worst decision i have ever made. im going to be honest. i never felt that way. and all those kisses were a mistake.
but even now, ive given you the chance i don't believe you deserve. something in which i have already realized will break me. i hate me more than you. but i guess you changed your mind- what you hold against me...
somehow, i dont feel much these days. ive returned back to my old days of compromise with my sullen loneliness. i hardly ever cry. i sleep alone. im okay. so while you reach realizations and come to conclusions that we both messed up and you would rather have some of me than none at all, just don't try to drag me in. it wont work. ive made up my mind.
have you already forgotten? i tried to reconcile the pain. i apologized over and over again, but you were too blind to realize that was all i could do. there was nothing else i could give you. i was never any less than honest with you. i gave you what i could and all you gave in return at the end was bitterness over something i could not control- my heart.
i cried for days. wondering if my decision was the right one. i recognized it was snap and i used a stupid disagreement as the catalyst to heartbreaking emptiness, but i never changed my mind. telling you i loved you was the worst decision i have ever made. im going to be honest. i never felt that way. and all those kisses were a mistake.
but even now, ive given you the chance i don't believe you deserve. something in which i have already realized will break me. i hate me more than you. but i guess you changed your mind- what you hold against me...
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