not allowed to be real

i guess i just liked the idea of you
some skewed perception of perfection

and now even with questions answered,
youre still leading me back to this
if it was all a plan
cause im doing what i can

though youre breaking your promises
from when you said youd break the mold
but your face was cold
like you were set in stone

and id rather leave my feelings alone
as if i wanna hear something heart wrenching
that theres no reason for me to feel this way
i dont want to know the true reason i caved

but you always pull me back
saying im pretty
and that you like me
but telling others that its not likely

are you doing this to spite me
not that i want you back
already had what i can have
even if it wasn't in the plan

every body on my body
cant leave me haunted
think youre gorgous
i got what i wanted

and you said you didnt mean to hurt anyone
but you didnt tell me
thought that i liked you
but thats not likely

now that i know the truth
found myself sitting alone in the booth
and you still say hey
trying to recall some sliver of feelings

if i feel anything
its not enough
to miss you
or to idealize us two

and it still pisses me off
acting like nothing happened
when i asked you straight up
cause i wasnt who i had been

too quiet to say what i meant
think youre lovely though you left me spent
i still haven't got the point across though
that i want you and youll never know