"i say i may be back. you know what lies are for."

thought you were lovely
but you could never love me

but i guess it doesnt matter because im leaving
fighting something so pointless because i love repeating

you said we had this conversation before
and asked what i thought would happen
when i opened this door

told you i guess i love to fuck myself over
knowing i wanna know you
but i dont want you to know her

and every single time we got close enough
we pulled back
thinking what we had wasnt enough

or maybe it was me
recognizing now
that i change my mind too easily
everything i always feel
only lasts as long as i stay here

or maybe i didnt see
what i should have
saying i'll never be what i want to be
and i hate the way i make myself feel like shit
not thinking you could care even the slightest bit

when you really did
you ended everything for me
and still love me regardless of what i did
i broke your heart
i lied
saying i would cherish it
at least more than she ever did

but i fucked myself in the end
and you made the right decision
going back again
when i could tell you what i want
but never do anything about it