love is easy if you dont try to please me

told you im sorry
tried to use you as a barrier
then turned around and buried more

i lied
youre right
but a week apart
means more when you realize theres still weeks apart

but you told me youd be alright
when youre not
leaned in and said you love me
cause you know how i feel about touching

he doesnt know how i feel about touching
or even the half of me
doesnt realize these things i cannot be
have to get drunk to be okay with anything

and you told me you understood
although i left you alone
its okay if i would

and you still tell me you love me every day
but time has a way of helping decay
and even more when youre hours away

so i broke my promise
as i said i would
because you said you didnt think i could
well i proved to you that i could

and in that process
i tore apart your safety net
wanted you to feel something
wanted you to regret

love you for the things you cannot be
like someone comforting
when im lonely

and i know the distance leaves you unkempt
god i know how much it hurts
cause it leaves me even more bent

every part of me misses you
and even more now that you know the truth

and yet still so naive that youd take me back
you said in a heartbeat
i could never lack

i wanna know what you see in me
but you said its something you cant explain
thought i was lovely before you knew my name

and i want you to know that i feel the same
god you are so beautiful
every angle of you
makes my heart feel full