feeling less but not nothing at all

i told you i hated it
how you got drunk enough to kiss me
but not drunk enough to miss me
cause when im missing
theres always others to be listening

hope you found your niche
i know youre new
because i am too
but you found where you need to be
something too distant
for my eyes to see
or my heart to meet

i thought the taste of you sweet
lips too soft
to remember im lost
and feeling more
but realizing too soon
that it meant nothing at all
cause you didnt call
when i wanted you to
to tell me that you want me too

but i'll blame myself
like every other time i fell
too soon for a heart to tell
whats the truth
i felt the abuse
and i wrapped the noose

i should have known
but you had me thrown
made me feel like i was one
but not realizing i was only one of some

but i cant hate that
because i know its you
and even more
i love the blue
blank eyes
try and say that youre mine
but i know what i cant be
because youre too lovely
for a lady
though ive loved you lately