you can sin or spend the night all alone

i know i dont know you....
maybe thats what i regret
or maybe that it wasnt me...

still dont know what to do
thought i was missing you
realized i cant find the heart to

and i know that i can not say it with deafening certainty
that timing was off
so i just got lost

but theres nights we spend bent
remembering days we want to forget
trying to find ways to start over again

not realizing it cant happen
and theres things that hurt
cause our hearts to curve

and turn towards the things we lack
wish i could get back now what i had
what i took for-granted

what keeps me awake in my bed
and locks me away in my head
trying to swallow words that bled

hate everything i ever said
wish that i could take it back
wish it could make you forget

and im sorry about the day we met
finally found where i caught myself in a stupid net
the product of my stupid slip

the words that hit
and im sorry that it meant more to me
that you still cant see what i see

but you can know im trying
it hurts
but i couldnt be lying.

and i know what you mean
sorry that earlier i refused to agree
theres promises we make we dont want to keep

like laying down to catch some sleep
in a bed of hate
and lies and greed

want you to know that its okay
that i understand
that there are things i cant demand

and i lied about what i can
when grievences toor apart the best of me
and dragged the rest out to sea

that in the end
i still mean everything i said
im here when you need a bed

and can hear you out
when you cant find your head
the places we were lead

found a way to forget
well, to forgive
guess you win.