i think

i told you id write
but what happens when theres nothing to say?
do i keep my promise?
or do i just walk away?

i meant what i said
about how i was happy for you
though i wish id admitted it was a lie
and that i want you to stay

but what do you expect me to say?
do you want me to lie
pretend like
i dont really feel this way

its hard to conceal
ive never been so honest
or so open
or so careless as to what others say

i dont think i could do better
thats why im losing
i dont think i could feel worse
thats why im lying