house of hallways

i never cried
i held my breath
i never thought i could
and you wouldve never guessed

that you couldve been the cause of this
that you were something more
that you were the scars on my wrists

so before you say she understands more
think about how close we were
and those highest fall hardest
and that one time...
it wasnt just one time

i know youve found god
ive heard it before
i know your sorry
ive seen you on the floor

you admitted
the way i walked out the door
made you want to say "screw it"
and buy a bottle or four

but the statement wasnt meant to be a punishment
but an encouragement
if you love me
we can fix it

just like i did
for our beautiful
little boy and girl
so their lives can be full

so i can be more to them
i want you to mean more to me
i want what i say to get through
and i want you to feel brand new