how can i love you when you dont love yourself?

i feel nothing
nothing for the past
i prefer not to dwell
or share my memories
with people who really care

i think you love yourself too much
to realize what youre really doing
to put an end to an addiction
that caused my self infliction

when you made me feel like nothing
i slowly felt like feeling something
bad or good
was better than feeling this nothingness

pain i can deal with
apathy is too smart for me
too much
not enough.