"You mess me up completely"

I love the way she said it
like it was something meant
but shes incapable
of being left bent
more like leaving ones spent

it used to mess me up completely
that after everything
shes not who she said she would be
forgot the part where she said shed love differently

but many things happen unexpectedly
and the same for you
i hope you wont pin it against me
sometimes feelings come uneasily

broken hearts leave you empty
even more than youre meant to be
but sometimes, people come around to tell you youre lovely
enough to make me forget the things
which before only stressed the breaking

maybe i like you because you can make me forget
enough to remember what i always wanted
but enough to know better that i wont get it
maybe im just going back again

old enough to be just like him
and still able to make me not care
young enough to be aware
and youre not just like him

but i still have to wonder if you just like to talk
cause everything brings me back
to leading me on
when three years strung along
is long enough to wonder if i did it wrong
or if it was never in the plan
in the first place
i realize now all that time was a waste

i just dont want to do it again
i put too much heart in
and im asking now
though i dont want to get ahead
i want you to be honest
because i want to be clear of your intention
before diving in