"wiping your shoes at the door mat and still making a mess"

I don’t know how I should feel

So unexpected

It doesn’t seem real

But only now

I know less of you

Than I feel I should have

Want to know what you think

Saying youre thoughts still aren’t gathered

But realizing now

That more I have mattered

And I never even considered it

As you said, my eyes never reflected

Maybe because I never considered an option

Or maybe, heartbreakingly

Because friends are like gin

You always want more of it

And yet, condescendingly,

I have to wonder if it’s a misplace in feelings

A misstep

cause a compliment had your heart leapt

I want you to know what you mean to me

Although time may have me retreating

Apologizing for every word left you leading

To believe that it was a possibility.

I am so goddamn sorry

Not knowing how to handle things

Because I always feel my heart retreating

I love that youre writing

That words have a way of describing

Feelings I didn’t know could be a thing

And now youre waiting in the room opposite of me

Waiting for the same kind of response

But knowing it will leave you empty

Saying you fucked yourself

By being too friendly

But everything here leaves me unkempt

Remembering boys and girls back home

Who made my heart bend

I love you with every right fiber

But, im sorry, that theres a lacking in fire