make the decision to be happy

i told you i loved you madly
and that it doesnt matter
because regardless of whether or not you disagree
i think youre so fucking lovely

i know youre going through shit right now
 ...it all seems to be fucking up
everything you want seems to be tumbling down
...and piling up

but sweetheart, sometimes life isnt what it should be
sometimes what we think we want leaves us empty
and time has a way of creeping
remind you theres no time for sleeping

i want you to know that we all fuck up
when theres too much time in the spaces between
we're not always who we thought we would be

but damning yourself to lack of meaning
only reenforces that youre learning something you should be
and in time, you'll understand everything you need

so dont stress...
everything that means anything is always a mess
when asking you if you'll still fuck him when he gets here
is just a test

to see if theres anything
would be a lie
to the test of time

we all need a break
cause he fucked you over
so you stayed awake

and you made yourself alright
im so glad that two days was enough time
and that you found the right space
to allot the rhyme