"I remember laughing as if you weren't leaving"

my head hurts
knowing im not what you deserve
someone whose eyes
encompass the world

baby blue
i love saying i love you
and the way you loved to turn my radio up
cant wait for the weekend
when i can tell you just how much

and i leave my window cracked
just enough to cover what i lack
saying im open
though you know im pinned
and im a cynic
so you know what it means
when i say im spent

and though it was short
i know i love you more
maybe because of it
maybe because you say you want to forget
when it hurts to miss

we stayed up all night
not realizing how much it sucks
to say goodbye
or that i would cry
cover it up by saying i didnt care
then held tighter than ever before
with my face in your hair
it smelled like my shampoo
because you took a shower
while i locked myself in my room

it sucks trying to remember what you look like
knowing i'll see you soon
and the red will be faded
fucked myself with how long i waited