Show me what im missing

tell me i wont find better
that you hope im cold
in sleepy weather

and maybe im missing out
on things ill never know
because i never tried to figure you out

so show me what im missing
i wanna feel lost
and loathing

i wanna hurt like those bold things
the words that you told me
hope you wanna hold me

thanks for letting me know i fucked up
didnt realize what you were worth
when you were always messed up

smoking something new
holding onto the blue
of flecks in your eyes

when you used to make me cry
told me where i was meant
was on the other side

of loving myself
you know i couldve died
trying to be a lie

so show me what im missing
im just kidding
i know it isnt much