do you realize how fucking long its been?

did you forget?
when it takes years to put down what i feel
erasing and rewriting as we spin like a movie reel

but this shit keeps changing
and you keep shutting yourself down to me
so when i open up, hold me up

and we watch the pieces fall apart
then make it up
as if we could restart

i wanna restart
didnt realize what importance you hold
because i refused your heart

while you held mine
wrapped it in white
like hands that intertwine

i wanna say im sorry tonight
though i dont know what for
ill take all the blame 'till we're cured

and i wanna go back
back before names were erased
faster than your heart was chased

and i wanna tell you i love you
and not just for your body
but because im new

because you changed my perspective
and because it feels like ive known you for a hundred months
not just two