cant imagine anyone else feeling so broken

no faith in me
no faith in you

i respect those who can put their hearts on the line
to feel a god they cant see
to put their lives on hold to intertwine

ive seen grace
like my mother pulling me out of a broken mess
child of the state

but i cant see passed that
the literal savior was the woman beside me
the woman who made me

this morning, it brought my past back
realizing what i lack
my innocence and childhood i can never get back

but i dont want that
i want now what i thought i understood
before being pulled from my lonely neighborhood

i think im making the right decision
only trusting what i can see
however thats never set me free

holding me back like a newborn baby
my daddy who tied my wings
telling me what i could never be

i was lost in the sea
currents reiterating that i should be down on my knees
to pray for forgiveness, for something to which i had never agreed

how could i believe in you?
when you never helped them believe me?
when i was only doing what was best for others

putting little girls and boys futures before me
i never wanted to stand in front of a man who womanized a baby
but i realized it had to happen before he marked another three

still he walked
smiling as he talked
because a twelve year old girl

couldnt show twelve others her
and what was taken
they were mistaken

and proved god was only faking
allowing another mean man
to keep on breaking

so if you can trust him after that
if you can see passed his past
well you have a faith that i lack

and i would never wish for that