found the gap

i know its scary
knowing what we are not

thats the worst part
recognizing the lacking
when everything is missing

hope you miss me
and that you realized how ridiculous
holding onto broken threads is

when the strings caused it
dying just a little bit
to realize what the bottom is

but a burden can be
more than we expected to see
when hearts bleed
though we didnt know they meant anything

and i hope you see what i am now
that love makes us crazy
but a broken heart can calm you down

and even worse
it flaunts what we never found
when we sleep in oceans
with hope to drown

but you told me things get better
and life hurts, so ill write you a letter
to tell you i feel better

now that youre far enough away
because you never wanted to stay
and ill say something to the effect of
i hope youre okay

but you know thats a lie
because youve seen my face
i hope youre hearts like mine
things hurt until they decay