"I know I mean what I say."

my heart says things my mouth refuses to eject
and should i spill everything i feel
im afraid i'll be left with regret

i wanted to say that i love her
that her openness has opened me
and shes opened my eyes to things id never seen

and i have never dodged the windows like i do now
wanting to say everything i feel
but knowing better than to let it out

and that night in the car
i said more than i should have
and yet still wanting to say more when i could have

i know your ears are safe
that every word spilled are kept in a safe
and i like you that way

never have i ever...
wanted to embark on such an endeavor...
when blue eyes make my heart melt

and you never fail to make me laugh
regretting the nights i have to take you back
before exposing everything i feel that i lack

and though theres a difference
in juxtapose position
i want you to know you leave my heart unkempt

that every moment spent
has left an impact
and i would never take it back

that i love you against everything saying i cant
or that i shouldnt
have to tell you what i previously couldnt

love your arms
and the way they could hold me
if only i had let thee

or if only i had met me
before i told myself the decision is easy
because i am leaving

but my heart is fleeting
and making me lose my feeting
ive never felt so needing