thanks for loving me

maybe im not what you wanted me to be
couldnt find the heart to tell you differently
i know i pushed you against a wall
tried to explain myself but felt empty

and theres things i wish id said
like that im sorry and that i like you
but timing was off and now i feel dead

and theres things i cant be
but i can promise you the worst of me

i know im incapable of loving
you dont need to tell me
or plead that i wont feel hurt
ive never felt more

or maybe i just missed my mark
came in on the wrong side
led with my body
and missed out on the talking

but i liked the way you looked at me
fighting the sleep in your eyes
to show me theres something
that came out of nothing

it felt like putting my head in your lap...
and wanting that night back
where i could spill honesty
without hating myself for what couldnt be

and i want you to know that i said no
that i told him it was time to go home
not for you
but because of

irregardless of the end
you still leave my heart unkempt