angel from hell

i feel like im only feigning it
like im holding on
because i spilled my heart
just like i did
when i gave him my innocence

so what does this mean?
is it the end for me?
like the boy who sits behind me
doesnt mean a thing?
oh god, that was embarrassing

its such a disappointment
that what he was to me
was just a filler
to get some sleep

but i know im going to need something
because daddy is back
for more than just a week