basement songs

I have always felt more comfortable naked
But my head feels nice on your soft chest
When i lay down to wrap around
I know that i can rest

I have always resented that i can take off my clothes but leave my make up
Smeared on pillowcases in sheets i have not felt safe in
But i feel your breath on my cheek
And do not hide from sunrays brushing my face where your hand runs to move my hair that covers my eyes
You say that im beautiful like that and inside

I have never mustered up the courage to compromise with a past i am unnecessarily embarrassed with
But i felt so intensely connected
Then you made me feel delicate
As if everything i have been through does not weigh me down
And though i still hate it
I no longer wrestle with the negativity that dulled me out or stole my crown

I had previously felt relegated to a loneliness due to lack of understanding
But i have never felt so sure of myself
Standing not stupidly too soon to be bare flesh
But confidently with my heart so honest

I have yet to have felt like i needed to compromise with myself in order to please you
And my heart flutters every time i know i can say what im thinking
without worrying we will rub against each other with friction
Or leave red, raw, cutting myself for lack of attention

Instead i press my lips against your skin
After i climb out of a hole i consistently hide in
Terrified the dirt under my fingertips
Displays more than my fear of attachment
When i know that everyone i love learns how to bury me in the end
Ill try harder to get past it
In hopes that my openness doesnt destroy me when i let you in