2 weeks in/drunk off 1 beer/friday spins

I would have said i love you
A long time ago
If i didnt know any better
My emotions are entrapment
And I dont want to be a heavy head on your pillow
Or a heavy heart on your weighted chest
When we're already pulled down by our past

I cant hate you for being honest
I can only resent her more for tearing apart your best
And dissapoint myself by moving too fast
Fuck i Only fall more in love before you can promise
But im trying not to make it a habit
To give you all of me before you can handle it
But you were more than i expected

Whispering words i should say definitively
But your presence means more to me
And im too tied up in what we were supposed to be
While you discourage the idea that this is enough for me

I dont know if it is
I dont really care at this point
Ill grip until callouses turn my hands rough
Run them over skin i have touched
for only barely two weeks
And im sure its enough
To feel like i have known you too well to make my stupid voice weak
I would tell you everything if i wasnt afraid
I would hear myself cracking
Breaking open to trace the lines on my limbs and what they all meant
We would deal with heartbreak in the same way
If i hadnt found a safer place

And im not talking about hiding or sulking or even burrying it deep
But coming to terms with damaging things
I was told were a problem for me
And i dont know if you have thought the same things
But i just really want you to share everything with me
Because i have never felt attached to someone so lovely