im not thick skin draped over broken bones. i still get ahead of myself, stupid believing in myself, stupid ideas of having better judgement. im not invincible; i cant dance barefoot in poison ivy and not leave red. i cannot rise to the occasion. im still proud i can get out of bed on occasion.
i still bite my bottom lip, pulling off dead skin with my teeth. thinking they were left chapped in the winter, but you cant pull it out like a splinter.
i still have to curl my fingers and force them to behave- stupid to think i left my writers block along with my loneliness. but realizing pulling my legs up is only a sulking mechanism- im not passed it. okay with staying stationary. thinking a valid response is filling myself with negativity.
i never know what you mean. they say pictures are worth a thousand words, but i never know what to say.
or maybe im just begging you to mean something. getting caught in distance instead of my heart. my head is further invested. i only like you because the idea is not legitimate.
you said exactly what id hoped you would. that its not likely, knowing if i wanted anything else, that would be unlike me.
but i have to be a bitch and hide from any promises. trying to find the strength ti apologize for my defense mechanism. but that would mean ive grown up or that i like you more than i should.
its just youve held my interest longer than expected. i thought id chosen the perfect target to share a drunken bed with but only now its more complicated. normally its all or nothing.... but with you, i take what i can get
i still bite my bottom lip, pulling off dead skin with my teeth. thinking they were left chapped in the winter, but you cant pull it out like a splinter.
i still have to curl my fingers and force them to behave- stupid to think i left my writers block along with my loneliness. but realizing pulling my legs up is only a sulking mechanism- im not passed it. okay with staying stationary. thinking a valid response is filling myself with negativity.
i never know what you mean. they say pictures are worth a thousand words, but i never know what to say.
or maybe im just begging you to mean something. getting caught in distance instead of my heart. my head is further invested. i only like you because the idea is not legitimate.
you said exactly what id hoped you would. that its not likely, knowing if i wanted anything else, that would be unlike me.
but i have to be a bitch and hide from any promises. trying to find the strength ti apologize for my defense mechanism. but that would mean ive grown up or that i like you more than i should.
its just youve held my interest longer than expected. i thought id chosen the perfect target to share a drunken bed with but only now its more complicated. normally its all or nothing.... but with you, i take what i can get
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