i was young enough, i still believed in war

cuddling close when i dont know what to say
because you leave me breathless and scared to death
moving faster than the decay
your movements mimic mine
hoping im more than passing time
but always feeling reassured when you look at me

i disregarded differences before
believing opposites attract
but your magnetism means more
i sent you songs
and you sang along
feeling complete as if you wrote the trapeze swinger for me

but less than a week terrifies me
always unsure of myself
too tempted to forget my past
when im thinking you could last
and always wondering if im diving in before the water is warm
afraid i'll leave empty handed
or with less than i had when i jumped in

im terrified of opening up
but comfortable when you match my ferocity
and hearing about your family
i feel comfortable when you lay next to me
blurring lines
placed after defeat
i feel like with you, i could sleep