first day of my life

why is it so easy to list our negatives
and so hard to admit we're more than them?

im crazy about you

but im begging to resist the urge to open up
feeling as inadequate with you as you did her
wishing it would end before i get any deeper
but knowing better,
you dive deeper than anyone before

or im hoping its just a side effect of being lonely so long
hoping it will end sooner than later
but wondering what good that will do now
aside from prove my instincts wrong

but continuing this poetry only a couple of weeks later
i realize now im a pessimist
so quick to claim that im not worth it
but you make me feel like im the best there is

ive never been so sure
counting down hours until i see you again
because every moment spent
ive never been so comfortable in my own skin

stock piling memories of you being so perfect
thinking back now and realizing karma did its best
it closed all those windows
so when it opened the door
you were on the other side of it
hugging me tighter than the night we first met
im so happy just laying in your bed

falling deeper with every word said
"i could wake up every morning with you like this"