written in "an atlas of the difficult world" by adrienne rich

maybe i let myself sink too far
changed my mind about finding the heart
shouldve known better than to try to restart

and you said you know better
well then, tell me who i am
and what i cant
when i know i can

and you said i made a promise
a drunken one, but i said id be honest
well, then
i thought we were beyond this

you said you have five minutes
relegating me to spill all my heart
knowing i wouldnt fit
i knew i wouldnt find my niche

say you dont understand
that the plan isnt in what i am
but in who i want to be
someone you couldnt see
because ive always been the worst of me...

but theres time for changing
isnt there?
i know theres still time
to argue time isnt fair

and theres days when the cross is too much to bear
cant find the light
shining behind angel hair

but i said its what i wanted
regardless of how unfair
would tell you im ready
but i know my voice would tear