contorted to fit

maybe i forced myself in
thought i could find comfort with all the boxes
didnt realize id be sleeping with foxes...

and theres things we should take back
like saying i love you
instead of the facts

and im sorry for not being honest
that i made you believe that we were beyond this
when i dont really know where we fit

and i can feel it in the pit of my stomach
hating myself for everything i did
and everything i promised

which fell through like wishes
and everything i forgot to mention
like i dont know where we end

if i want to jump off the cliff
or finally let myself win
by letting all of this go and letting you in

i hate everything i cant forget
like the things i said when we first met
the things which tore apart your safety net

and i hate everything i did
saying i changed when i really didnt
and the whole of what was bent

found my heart is spent
and i let in
more than what was lent

hate you for it
for all the walls i broke down
when you came around

and how im feeling now
like it was never worth it
trying to force myself where i would never fit