burning bridges

its sadness
the pure facts of this
the way everything i miss
is tainted

all memories seemed like bliss
like something reasonable
for a girl to wish
but in the background is sickness

like a nightmare
i could never win
i could never finish
im scared of where id end

so dont ask me why i dont trust
why i burned our bridges
and the disgusting pride i felt
when i had lit them

dont ask me why i dont speak
when im only reciprocating
what i had for years and years
the silence that caused me tears

i know you love me
although never evident
although never more
than you loved your score

now youre moving here
throwing ghosts in my face
trying to fall near
like our past was always clear

i wonder how you dont see
the murky seas
the rocky past
the fallen leaves

i dont want to be
youre little girl
not anymore
youve hurt me more