the sky was big and blue and full of everything

i feel bad
like its my fault
you feel this way
like i couldve done something different

but then i think about him
did he make the choice?
oh i wish he did
but he definitely couldnt

so what am i supposed to say
when you admit
you feel this way
im as lost as you

but what do i expect him to say
no? im sorry?
but then i wonder
will i even be able to muster up the courage

say what im feeling
say what youre feeling
so we can get it out in the open
but i already know it

does he know it?
are my words even necessary
how will he react?
how will i react?

no, im sorry
i dont feel the same
and its a cycle
a heartbreaking cycle

feeling sorry for myself

could never love a liar
he hurts too much
he needs too much
but theres not enough love
for the both of us

and i know i told you im sorry
that i want you back
and this pain i cant carry
but i lied
like you, when you said youd be alright
how does it feel
now that youre on the other side?

oh baby boy...
suck it up
i dont need your luck
cause with it
id get fucked

wish i could format my heart

wish i knew where to start.
two broken hearts that grew up
not one though, that still has its spark

of course im happy
what would i have if i let that go?
if i let what i really felt show?

my heart is hurting
like i just might die
without you by my side

and i know its a cliche
but only 'cause its true
like how i miss the blue

eyes like diamonds
eyes like mine, crying
'I' like your rIng

the one that you gave me
before you left
and i thought i knew what was next

before that wreck
the kisses on my neck
from where you had said tomorrow

but more time was borrowed
and i cant feel the sorrow
ill meet you there

under the alter
like that man never faltered

what will you find?

do you remember me?
yeah, from back when we were in love
from back when that was enough

and maybe we missed our prime
like you said,
we lost our rhyme
but im thinking thats alright

and for a while i felt cold
but now thats gotten old.
and now im letting go
because you have gotten low

like i never even knew you
like every word never got through you...
i know you said ill be fine
but what about you?

because if im falling apart
there must be something new
like a green eyed girl
i know you had a thing for emerald worlds

god, that hurts
the very thought of it
i shouldve mentioned earlier
that im not over yet

hope you dont think im too safe

"you ruined my heart,"
he said,
with non-diminishing strength

like it was something he practiced
in the mirror
but it hurt

like the words that he gathered
the four words
had burned

strung together so eloquently
making me feel weak
making me resent my need

flashbacks
making my head hurt
like my heart had

i gave him his rose back
what did he say?
i dont need that.

and now its black
sitting on my bedside table
untouched

like my hand
for so many months
do i miss it?

i dont think so
god, i dont hope so
you ruined my heart, too

and i know youre eyes like baby blue
could never understand
what i had to do

i have a dream for you

im sorry
the hurt that you carry
the pain that is burried

and i know whats true
so why do you lie?
try to cover up
what hes really like?

i dont know how you feel
aside from whats spoken
but the hurt in your eyes
shows me youre broken

but if everythings alright
why cant you sleep?
why do your dreams
scare you at night?

if it hurts
tear away
if you love yourself
you shouldnt stay.

so you've found god today...

so self absorbed
and judgemental
i feel like ive forgot
who was with Him

He found God
over the weekend
While the other found God
locked in a rehab

But it doesn't matter
They always return
Once they get a chance
to score again

Hit the floor again
Its a war again
But who are you?
A teacher?

Oh God,
I forgot for a second
as you claimed I was immoral
because of a stupid quarrel

smoke and mirrors

tact, something that i lack
and it scares me
like being condemned to a hell
i could never believe in

so how can i prove that?
im sorry, i shouldnt have done that
but now my thoughts are scaring me
would i really repeat a mistake?

or would i play it safe
walk the tight rope to my safety net
but if i considered jumping over the edge...
enough with that.

maybe im feeling lonely again..
like anyone could win
and the first one i see,
my feelings swallow me.

helpless

bruises on your skin
where your man has left his mark
because you didnt tell him you loved him
though not given time to start

and i know it hurts
the pain is crippling
but even worse
the pain is rippling

but you say you need him
that his love is strong
ignore the bruises
hes placed on your arm

and your heart
its broken
like bones
when youve misspoken

regardless of your claims
i see your desperation
the blackness in your eyes
like his caused by "frustration"

eyes like the ocean

I never saw it coming
I never saw the ocean
But now when I do
Im thinking of you

I'm seeing the blue
The currents, the colors of your eyes
And I admit it hurts
But I still put up a disguise
I know I still love you
But if I'm asked, I'll tell a lie

I'm over it,
I'm over it,
Yeah it stung like a jellyfish
but now I can wish
on a shooting star
without thinking of you
without falling hard.

And for now its alright,
but I can't promise that tonight.
Thats what I'll say,
but you and I both know thats a lie.

I'm sorry I never told you I love you.

That your flowers died
and heart withered.
That I never told you how it felt;
it felt broken.

And when you told me what it meant
it meant that you were done with it
And I was alone again
while you confessed your happiness.

You know I'm glad that you moved on,
that you no longer hurt,
not anymore,
not ever again.

I never admitted
you had stolen something of mine.
But I never want my heart back,
so never return it like you can.

push

i never meant to hurt you
to push you away
when all you wanted was to stay

right now youre drowning yourself in the bathtub
praying to god he will take you this time
because ive got nothing to rhyme

with im sorry
i know your heart is warm
but mine is torn

and these keys keep sticking
like a relentless bitch
making it harder for me to find your niche

i realize now that you needed me
however i only met you with
anger and stubbornness

i burned myself
hoping you would forgive me
hoping i could forgive me

i hope he takes you this time
maybe then youll get what you deserve
and ill be stuck with all your hurt

i really deserve it
i never saw your worth
i guess that shows how much im worth

abandon

fake like youre not crying

like those blood shot eyes dont prove youre dying

i know youre holding on

i know youre hiding out

i always ask myself

am i the cause of this?

is there anything i could do

to make you feel better than this?

'cause i feel like shit

and i know holding on

it cant be that easy

so let me in and let yourself move on

waiting is lonely

are you okay?
cause youre something that i miss
and the butterflies that go along with it

i know id be pulling at strings
if i ever admitted it aloud
if i ever told you i felt cold

but my bed just doesnt feel right
im tossing and turning
trying to fill spaces in the night

remember what i said
about being a cage?
my bird wants back home

she misses her heart
but i know, deep down
we could never restart

i think this loneliness is getting to me
i dont mean to be mean
but i dont really miss your key

i miss feeling sweet
feeling important
feeling like a need

burning bridges

its sadness
the pure facts of this
the way everything i miss
is tainted

all memories seemed like bliss
like something reasonable
for a girl to wish
but in the background is sickness

like a nightmare
i could never win
i could never finish
im scared of where id end

so dont ask me why i dont trust
why i burned our bridges
and the disgusting pride i felt
when i had lit them

dont ask me why i dont speak
when im only reciprocating
what i had for years and years
the silence that caused me tears

i know you love me
although never evident
although never more
than you loved your score

now youre moving here
throwing ghosts in my face
trying to fall near
like our past was always clear

i wonder how you dont see
the murky seas
the rocky past
the fallen leaves

i dont want to be
youre little girl
not anymore
youve hurt me more