hold it against me, but i hate you for your honesty

against everything ive ever wanted
girl whose supposed to mean nothing
still leaves me haunted

god, you just cant comprehend
how broken you left me
cause i was always too shy
to tell you what you mean

though it counts for nothing
you mean everything

or should i say meant?
i know i mean it
but you leave my heart so spent

i told you every fucking day how much i love you
what you mean to me
not just that you were so goddamn pretty
but that night in your bed
when you opened up
and spilled your head
it was so goddamn perfect
i've loved you every day since

i miss you too much to admit the bend
i almost called
but you knew it all
too well
you watched me fall

you should have lied
i would have been alright with not knowing
but you hate to make me happy
and you hate to admit you want to be happy
so you screw the possibility
hope you miss me
cause youre the part of me thats missing