saw that you liked to smile, you know that it takes a while, takes a risk

you said you heard
some people
youre meant to fall in love with
but theres a difference
and i dont know if i was meant to fill in
the spaces
or if you wanted me to bend
or if you were hoping i would give in

but those people
youre not always supposed to be with
you just learn a lesson
regardless of how you feel during it
like the hurt isnt worth it
but we made our choices
like we make our beds
before sleeping in them

and sometimes you wonder what the point is
knowing there will only be heartbreak in the end
saying goodbye
when we only just started

and i'll say i hate it
the strings lead us in
too far, too late
but there was something made
something learned
something enough
to make it all okay

i know you feel youre lacking
like everything i promise
you know i want it to be true
but it has no backing
because sometimes
even when i want something to be true
when distance sucks
i dont have even the slightest clue

and things are new
enough to make a girl already confused
even more lost
im sorry
i want to give you my heart
i want to give you everything you deserve
because youre a beautiful girl

but right now i cant give you my all
always been in a rush to the start
and bringing me there
in three weeks
ill unknowingly be falling apart
enough as it is

and i love you for it

for being someone amazing to miss
when two girls shared drunken kisses
on the first night they ever spent
you mean more than i could ever explain
knowing ill only miss you more every day i'll spend away